I’ve been schooled the last
three months in babyness.
It’s been
absolutely blissful. I honestly did not expect it to be like this. As I
mentioned in previous posts, I was certain this pregnancy and baby was more
than I could handle, that I was too overwhelmed. That’s not how I feel anymore. Although Canyon is my sixth baby, the entire
experience has felt brand new.
This is what I’ve learned
since having Canyon.
1. God will perform mighty
miracles in your life when you do difficult things. Having Canyon has allowed me to see what God
can do for me with my unique personality and life experiences. When I thought I was weak, He gave me
strength. What I thought I would just
“get through best I could” has turned into one of the most tender and beautiful
experiences of my life. I have more love
in my heart than I thought possible. My faith
has increased tremendously.
2. The innocence and
vulnerability of a baby has absolutely come alive for me. When you look at a precious baby and the
needs only you can meet for them are apparent, you have such a sense of worth
and love for that baby while fulfilling those needs. I learned this right
away. When Canyon was born, he was
placed on my chest crying. I soothed his
little back and spoke to my son “Momma’s here, Momma’s here.” He immediately stopped crying. Later when he cried, I again spoke to
him. I couldn’t believe how responsive
he was to my voice. Just speaking to him
in a soft tone soothed him.
3. A baby can offer
healing. The recent abortion videos/controversy
have left me in tears. Never have I felt the sting of innocent lives lost as I
have since the videos release. I have
had the privilege and comfort of holding my newborn baby while working through
my emotions over these horrific acts.
Some nights I will get him out of his crib and hold him because of the
love and energy I feel from his little soul.
I tremble to think only months earlier he was the size of the babies who
have been killed and body parts sold.
4. Although I’ve never had an
abortion, abortion affects me in many ways, especially as a mother. I have a
respect for babies I’ve never had before.
In a very realistic way with 55 million abortions (fact found here), there are few survivors. In some ethnicities, more babies are aborted every year than born. I look at my son
as a survivor. He will bless me throughout my life. Every baby is special. I think there is light shining from new babies and their experience on earth should be loved and celebrated.
5. A baby can change the tone of a home. There is more patience, love and joy. My two teenagers are smitten with their baby brother. My ten year-old can’t get enough. My daughter and 7 year-old son have to take turns because they are both so excited to hold the baby. I feel the lessons learned about the dignity of life and purity of a baby will forever impact my children.
Being a new mom has been an
extraordinary experience. Pregnancy is
difficult. Looking back, I wish I could
have had more vision of the joy that was to come. Because of what I went through, I feel I’m
more sympathetic to pregnant woman. Seriously,
if you are a pregnant woman and I cross your path I will caress you with
affection and compliments. I love
pregnant woman. Also, if you have a baby
prepare to be bombarded with love and adoration. I love babies. It is my commitment to never forget what I’ve
learned from Canyon.